White_LawyerZ

You are growing older when..everything hurts, and what doesn’t hurt doesn’t work. Sometimes…You feel like the night before and you know u haven’t been anywhere. Your mind makes promises your body can’t keep. You know the answers, but You’ve forgotten the question. Its like…You sit in a rocking chair and can’t get it going. Your back goes out more than you do. You get your exercise acting as a pall bearer at the funerals of the friends who exercised. The best part of the day is over…..when the alarm goes off… i miss you

at the beach having sweet lovely conversation in jimbaran, bali wif sum1 more wiser then me

its very late now…but y am i affraid to close my eyes, so sleepy,but the truth is..im so damn missed you..n o yeah i admit it, its really hurt me wat u did..last word u gave me is "ur misunderstood honey"..always rings ma bell!!even in my sleep..ur like drugs to me, make me become an addict…addicted to you, but i hate u also..so much!!..i thought we were happy together..y ur not telling me anything..or just gimme some sign..or whatever!!..i have to let u go..eventhough u say sorry…take a good look at me…becoz diz will the last time u see me…hear me…n its ur lost..ur loosing the best thing dat ever happen in ur life!!!

TUHAN, ENGKAULAH YANG MAHA BERKEHENDAK ATAS SEGALA SESUATU. JIKA
KAU TAK MENGIZINKAN AKU MELAKSANAKAN RENCANAKU, AKU AKAN RELA JIKA KAU MEMBATALKANNYA.
APAPUN YANG TERJADI KEPADAKU ADALAH YANG TERBAIK BAGIKU, DAN PASTI ITU PULA YANG KAU PANDANG PALING BAIK KARENA AKU SUDAH MEMINTAMU UNTUK MEMBANTUKU MENCARI YANG TERBAIK. JUST MAKE ME STRONGER N STRONGER EVERY DAY FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE…batam 071207

I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible and how it can actually ache in places that you didnt know you had inside you, and it doesn’t matter how many new haircuts you get or gyms u join or how many nights u hangout with girlfriends. You still go to bed every night goin’ over every detail and wonder what u did wrong or how you could have misunderstood and how in the hell!!..for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy and sometimes you can even convince ur self that He`ll see the light and show up at your door, and after all that…However long "all that" maybe…You`ll go somewhere new, and you`ll meet people who make you feel worth while again and lil pieces of your soul will finally come back, and all that fuzzy stuff..those years of your life that u wasted…will eventually begin to fade.

Do you sold your love for money? or for other reason? even though it means
to betray the trust that people gave you? or worse,even if it cost a life?
or to ruin a family? In pursuit of your so called happines, that you’re
willing to destroy everything? i can never do that!As ruthless as it
may seem, i still have boundries. What you so called love? that is not
love, that is lust. In this crazy world there are people that willing to
do anything for their happiness. They take the easy path, but not
everything have to be easy in this life. If everything is easy you can
never appreciate anything. Sometimes you have to suffer first to be
happy. You have to go to hell first before to go to heaven right? if you
know that, then why do you do it? if you have the answer to that, i’m
waiting for the answer..

My Room 2:02 am
Kangen yah sama kamu..padahal tadi malem barusan ketemu, tiap ngucapin gewd bye n gewd night pasti selalu deg-degan, selamat malam cinta, jiwa, dan terima kasih..cup..cup..aw..aw ^_^ denganmu diriku nyaman!
for someone thats only 20 block away..emmmmuuaaccchhh

Kenapa harus sayur jamur? coz its remind me of my father, kalo gue lagi kangen sama bokap gue, hal yang pertama gue lakukan adalah memasak jamur, gue pilih jamur yang persis seperti bokap gue sering masak. Selalu muncul kembali kenangan-kenangan manis tentang bokap gue dan gue ketika dulu kita sering masak jamur berdua. gue pernah bertanya sama bokap, kenapa musti jamur dan kenapa cuma jamur yang bisa dia masak, ternyata dari jamur pun kita bisa belajar tentang hidup, mungkin memang sudah ciri khas orang tua jika berbicara selalu kita anggap klise, tetapi pada kenyataan hidup justru aturan dan hukum klise itulah yang berlaku, bokap gue menjawab pertanyaan gue dengan sangat logis, berperasaan dan dapat diterima dengan akal gue. Dia jawab, jamur itu hidup dan tumbuh didaerah yang lembab, berlumut yang mungkin dulunya orang menganggap dia tidak berguna, tapi ternyata makhluk hidup yang tumbuh ditempat yang mungkin bagi sebagian orang kotor itu sangat berguna dan hanya dengan ditambah bumbu-bumbu sedikit, dia bisa lezat dan menyehatkan. Ahh… Kangen gue sama bokap!Sosok yang begitu kuat dalam hidup gue…miss u papa!

Best Regard n Respectfully

Your Beloved Daughter

My room April 22nd 2007, 5:22 am

saya tuh pengen banget dianggap sebagaimana perempuan umum lainnya. Ehm..Maksudnya Mayoritas. Perempuan Yang dianggap feminin bawaan sejak lahir!!, contoh kecil hal-hal yang saya coba untuk dianggap feminin, saya mencoba pake rok!! Komentar teman saya "loe pake apaan na??!??Pake handuk??!??" hahaha..siyal!!Akhirnya saya ga pernah lagi tuh pake rok!Kapok??Ga juga, kayanya ga penting banget pake rok hanya untuk dibilang feminin. Saya suka dandan kok dan pake"high Heels" itu terhitung feminin ga yah? saya ga suka denger musik yg begajulan atau jaman sekarang disebutnya rock  roll atau apalah namanya! justru saya tumbuh dengan musik-musik jazz, classical, old song, slow song, terhitung feminin ga yah? Teman-teman saya ada yg pro dan kontra, ada yang bilang saya ini tidak feminin sekali! (some say saya ini begajulan malah) hahaha..Tidak papa! ada yang bilang saya ini tergolong feminin! hmm well.. thats new!, atau mungkin saya bukan feminin tetapi cenderung romantis!!hahaha Mantap!mmm…saya emang ga bisa sih bersuara kecil, kalo saya bicara dengan orang yg bersuara kecil yang ada saya ga terdengar malah..bisa sih saya bicara lembut, tapi itu pun hanya terjadi kalo saya bicara dengan pacar saya deh, itupun kadang suka kelepasan juga ^_^’…Pacar saya pernah tanya.."Penting yah emang buat kamu dianggap feminin atau tidak??"..hehehe..berasa di gebok pake bola kasti deh ditanya seperti itu…well..akhirnya despite all of that..saya beranggapan apapun jadinya saya nanti, yang penting jangan menyusahkan orang lain! just try to be ur self n get the best of it rather then try to be someone ur’not n loose everything

I hope tomorrow will bring better u..better me..i Know that we`ll show this world, we got more we could be. You should never give up on ur hope n ur dream,you gotta get up get up get in do it get it on to be strong..all we need is believe n a smile on the face..we can go anywhere we want, anyroad we decided to take, n we never…never…never to far from tomorrow today!!